Akhil Marar wants out of the conversation. On the eve of his birthday, the Bigg Boss Malayalam contestant posted a long, raw note on Facebook saying he's done being a voice for anyone but himself, and that from now on he plans to stay quiet.

The post lands after a stretch of online mockery over what Malayalam social media has been calling his "nilapadu maattam", roughly, his change of political stance. Marar insists there's been no such change. He writes that he has always held on to the truth and that his position hasn't shifted, not then, not now.

But the note reads less like a defence and more like an exit line. "Tomorrow, September 7, is the day I was born," he writes, before going into what reads like a farewell to the public role he's occupied since reality TV made him a household name in Kerala. He calls himself a rebel who grew up fed on ridicule and contempt, and says he never ran from an opinion out of fear.

"I am killing myself"

The most striking lines are the ones that gave the post its headline treatment across Malayalam entertainment sites. "I am killing myself," Marar writes, going on to say he is starting to live as someone other than himself, training himself to see and hear everything and say nothing.

He frames this as a realisation rather than a defeat. He says he wanted to speak for the ordinary people of his home state, even as public recognition brought him gains that looked, from the outside, considerable. What he arrived at instead, he writes, is that truth, dharma and justice carry no currency in front of society.

There's an edge of bitterness running through the post too. Marar writes that he hasn't abandoned politics, society taught him that a person who holds on to truth simply isn't built for it. Let the fake political clowns lead you, he writes. Let thieves rule you while you sing their praises. He says he'll go back to living his own life and enjoying it.

What exactly triggered this particular round of trolling isn't detailed in the post itself, and Marar doesn't name anyone or point to a specific incident. The Facebook note stands on its own, a mix of birthday reflection and public sign-off from someone who spent recent months being read, and reread, for every political statement he made.

Whether "silence" actually holds is the open question. Reality television alumni rarely stay off timelines for long, especially ones who built a following on saying exactly what they thought. For now, the post is up, the birthday is Sunday, and Marar's next move, on Facebook or off it, is the thing to watch.